Starting last week, sitting around my parents table over New Years Eve, I started noticing that my gums were really hurting me. It felt like my wisdom teeth were coming in, but that couldn’t have been happening because I did the whole chipmunk face thing when Logan and I were engaged. When Saturday came, it was all I could do to get out of our bed. It is really one of the comfiest beds ever, but that’s not what it was. My head was pounding and each time I stood up or looked to the left and right I felt dizzy. It hurt to eat because my gums were still hurting. My skin felt like I was breaking out in a rash, but there was no sign of a rash on me, Logan checked a million times for me. And my glands were HUGE! The duration of that day was spent in bed, re-watching the beginning of Grey’s Anatomy. Sunday was the same- headaches, glands, skin, gums, Grey’s Anatomy and all. And then Monday came. I woke up with a headache and a cold sore (my first one ever) on my lip and sores all over inside my mouth. I knew that with the styled shoot coming up on Saturday that some things had to get done and I had to get to Idaho Falls. I didn’t have the energy to even look at myself in the mirror and get ready. Thankfully, I got on a prescription that day that will help the sores go away. The catch to that medication- I have to take it 3 times a day and I hate taking pills. It also needs to be taken with meals- it hurts so bad to eat that I’m basically on a pudding and soft baked potato diet right now. That’s real life this week. I couldn’t bring myself to blog on Monday, even though I know I should have. I was drained and tired. That’s real life. And I love Grey’s Anatomy, that’s real life.

After spending time with my friend Meghan last night, I have felt the need to be more real. I love sharing pretty posts and our “highlight reel” is always fun to focus on, but there are messy middles. When we focus so much on the social media feeds we look at of the perfect outfits, homes, and “lives,” we start to get way too hard on ourselves. And so here’s a new series that will pop in from time to time- This is Real Life. We want to show that our life really isn’t perfect, and that you don’t have to feel the need to always have the perfect life either.

Being completely honest, this virus that I have has sucked. I don’t like just eating pudding and soft foods all day long- I really just want to eat all the Christmas candy right now. I really would like to stop taking these pills because I really, really hate taking them. But worst of all, I can’t kiss Logan. While I was watching those early episodes of Grey’s, there is a point where Meredith and Derek have broken up and she can’t remember her last kiss with him. That’s exactly how I feel right now. I can’t remember my last kiss with Logan before all this. Right now, I can’t kiss him, because I love him way too much for him to have to suffer through these sores. That’s real life. My sister-in-law Chelsea told me the other day that she was surprised I’d been wearing lipstick lately, because Logan and I are “kissy” people- not like crazy PDA or anything. And right now, more than ever, I know she’s right. It’s hard to not kiss the person that you love- that’s why we have lips isn’t it?! 😉 As much as I’m looking forward to everything else, kissing Logan again is top of the priority list! That’s been a lot of real life for today, but I promise Friday will be back to a pretty blog post!! Here’s to real life and kissing!